23 years...

I miss my mommy soo much today. I'm a mom now; it is just surreal that it's only been 23 years since she gave birth to me.
I'm sure I was the light of her life at the time. I was to her, what Annabelle is to me. 


Just thinking about my past, present, and future a lot today. 


Today was a beautiful day. Filled with love and laughter. Good friends...and a wonderful family, that I've created.
And I'm so sad she's not here to celebrate this day..or any days in the future with me. .
I feel like your birthday is just as much your mothers day to reminisce on your life, as it is yours..kwim?  


She passed away 9 days after my 14th birthday. 


She threw a surprise birthday party for me..she filled my day with love and laughter. She wanted to know that I was soo loved. And then she left me.


I wish I never had to leave Annabelle. Ever. I don't ever want to leave her feeling this way...
but it's inevitable, right? When you've loved and lost..time and time again. You know.
I know that this loss makes me a better person. I know that losing my mother, I will be a better mother.
I will love, with all my heart, all of you.
Goodnight.

New Hair. =)

Good Morning, World.

It's going to be a beautiful day. I can feel it.


My list of things-to-do today is short.
I have to switch all my car ''stuff'' over to KY after dropping Nate off to work
and then we'll be going to see Doris, my little dementia patient that fell and broke her hip last week..


I'm going to try and go without coffee today.
Apparently you can't be a  Skinny Bitch and drink coffee...or have meat, dairy, sugar, or artificial ingredients...
meh. lol!
I'm left with fruits, vegetables, and whole grains. Awesome.
No. Honestly, I've done pretty well with it. And it has changed the way I look at what I eat. I can taste the chemicals in that crap, I once called food.

I hear my baby stirring. Time to jump in the shower.
I hope you have a beautiful day.